From the girl who froze, but still felt everything.

 Hey...

I saw you today.
Not from across the world , just across the table.
You were right there.
And yet… it felt like we were miles apart.

I didn’t plan to avoid you.
I didn’t mean to hide.
I just didn’t know what to do when my heart wasn’t ready, when my words froze halfway between my chest and my lips.

I wish I could tell you it’s not hate. 
It’s not ego. 
It’s not me thinking I’m too good, or pretending we were never close.
I remember everything. And maybe that’s exactly why I couldn’t say anything.

Sometimes, silence isn’t cold.
It’s just the only thing that doesn’t hurt.

If you saw me avoid you…
If you felt my absence louder than any hello 
I’m sorry.

But also… I hope you understand.
Some friendships drift not because we stop caring, but because we start healing and healing sometimes needs distance.

Maybe one day I’ll wave again.
Maybe one day we’ll laugh about this.
But for today, I just needed to protect my peace.

And I hope… even in silence…
You know I meant no harm.

Someone who still remembers,
just from a safer place now 

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