Healing Through Words with Hanis

There are moments in life that pass quietly, without a trace, and yet, somehow, they stay with us. Not loud. Not intense. Not even obvious. Just… quiet. We never even talked properly. We never met. A familiar name on my phone. A story I’d check daily without meaning to. Just a small, quiet habit that slowly made space in my routine. A soft corner in my mind I reserved. It was never serious. And then one day…No warning. No goodbye. Just a photo. Just a caption. Just a moment that somehow felt like an ending  Even though nothing had ever truly begun. It hurts in a way I didn’t prepare for. It hurts even though I never expected anything in return. Not like heartbreak. But like holding onto a memory that doesn’t belong to me. A story I didn’t get to write. Just a strange, sinking weight in my chest. It didn’t make sense. But it felt real. I shouldn’t have been hurt. But I was. And that confused me more than anything else. Maybe it was just hope. A quiet, gentle curiosity. A co...

 I miss who we used to be. It’s almost been 4 years since I started studying in Palam. I still remember the first time I came here,  completely alone, not knowing anyone. Luckily, I managed to survive. I'm grateful that I met kind people along the way. But sometimes, in the quiet moments, my mind drifts back to you. There was a time when we did everything together — from staying up late together, eating together, laughing over the dumbest things, hanging out like we had all the time in the world. We were always there for each other. But somewhere along the way, things changed.  It started when I ended up in a different course than you all. From then on, I started feeling left out — not intentionally at first, maybe. You all still had each other. And I was just... left behind. No more birthday wishes, no more random texts just to check up on me, no more of our usual silly chaos. From seeing or texting each other every single day, to maybe once, twice, o...

 🌸 Dear Me,   I know it’s not an easy day. I know your chest feels heavy and your eyes sting from holding back tears. But I’m proud of you — for waking up, for showing up, for choosing to be kind even when you’re breaking inside.   It’s okay to feel tired. It’s okay to cry. You don’t have to be strong all the time. Take a deep breath, let it out slowly, and remind yourself: you’ve survived 100% of your hardest days so far.   This feeling won’t last forever. One day soon, you’ll smile again — a real one, from your heart. Until then, rest when you need to. Heal at your own pace. Love yourself gently. With love,   💌 Your healing self

Hello everyone!! As 2024 comes to an end, I find myself reflecting on the lessons I've learnt and the experiences that have changed me. As usual, everyone has their own new year's resolutions, including me. My resolution is always the same as in previous years because I haven't achieved it yet. HAHHAAHHAHAHAHAAH. However I decided to add more and be specific on my resolutions.  Before that, let's recall what happened throughout this year. I feel like there’s so much going on. It’s definitely been a rollercoaster for me, but I’m rolling with it! I think my life can be written into a book because I'm sure that will be very interesting. With all the challenges I faced on my own, ups and downs, the plot twists and mind-blowing moments are off the charts. Trust me, you're definitely going to grab my book! 👅😆Enough for 2024. Tak nak cakap panjang. What past is past. So here is my resolution for 2025 💅: 1.  Set a consistent workout routine, even if it’s just brisk w...

This thought has been on my mind lately. I'm still learning not to judge people based on their sins. We are all not perfect. We're not 'maksum'. Ada orang susah nak jaga solat, tapi dia tutup aurat dengan sempurna. Ada orang yang buat maksiat , tapi dia buat baik dengan ibu ayah dia. Ada orang suka mengumpat, tapi dia selalu bersedekah. People are just trying to be better and nicer, but sometimes they get stuck dealing with tests from Allah. Betul kita kena tegur orang bila dia buat salah tapi tegur dengan lembut, jangan sampai menghina. Jangan benci dengan orang yang buat maksiat sebab kita pandang dia buat maksiat yang kita tak buat. We often overlook the good deeds they do that we cannot achieve ourselves. We may know about the sins that others commit, but only Allah knows our own sins. Everyone's imaan goes up and down just like our lives. We all make mistakes. So, do not judge people early. Jangan cepat nak menghukum orang. However, "The best of sinners ar...

Assalamualaikum everyone. Time flies really fast and now I'm in final year already?! I couldn't expect this happens very quick. Like wehh aku tak ready lagi nak habis degree. And now I start to doubt myself. Am I born to be in this field? Am I smart enough to be in this field? The most critical part is whether I am ready to be a pharmacist? I never imagined that I would be a pharmacy student since I was a child because my dream is just to be a teacher. Specifically a mathematics teacher. Why math? I also don't know. Genetics maybe.  Unfortunately, life leads me on an unexpected journey. My heart chose pharmacy. And I don't know the answer until now. But I know He already planned what is the best for me.  Orang lain rasa kita bijak dalam course ni tapi in real life "Ya Allah akulah manusia paling bo***".  I'm always insecure with intelligent people. "Kenapalah aku tak bijak macam dia ek" is on my mind every single day and it's too painful sayi...